Simply Filling Sucks.

I totally would have caved today if I knew I wasn't going to be writing or telling anyone about it here! When I woke up, I remembered that today was a baby shower at work, and we were all gathering at a popular local pizza joint for lunch. Talk about a food trap. I was determined to stay strong. I only had seven Points left to complete my Simply Filling Technique week and I was hoping to use those points for my dessert each night. So the pizza place was truly torture. There were baskets of garlicky breadsticks, plates full of dipping sides, and an entire table full of hand-tossed gourmet pizza running with cheese.
 
What did I have? I packed some egg salad and reduced calorie bread, which I ate at my desk before we went to the baby shower/pizza gauntlet. Plus some pomegranate seeds mixed with sugar free Jell-O. Then I had some 94% fat free popcorn, and I was still hungry the instant I walked through the doors into cheese and pizza-scented heaven.

While everyone else passed oozing slices and fragrant breadsticks, I sat there with some cherry tomatoes, an overripe banana, and a clementine on my plate. It was maybe the saddest meal ever eaten at a pizza parlor.

I passed up the cupcakes as well. White and chocolate, with a mountain of blue frosting. They looked wonderful and really triggered my sweet tooth, but I think they were still easier to pass up then the pizza was. Stupid Simply Filling.

 

Tonight I had polenta and veggies with fat free cheese, and a salad with fat free Italian dressing (Still a Point! Grr!) and croutons made from my rosemary bread. I followed it quickly with another Smart Ones sundae, and with my last bite of dessert, my final Points were gone. Damn.

 

I'm still hungry right this minute! I think I could go raid the fridge and eat until I literally exploded. 

 

 

And I don't use the word 'literally' liberally. It feels like I could actually eat until I split through my skin.

 

I read on some Weight Watchers post that members have given themselves an extra seven Points during their first Simply Filling trial. I think that may have to happen--I don't think I'll be very pleasant to be around if I force myself to wait until Wednesday morning to eat anything with any Points value. Maybe I'm not strong enough, maybe I'm not doing something correctly, maybe I'm just too much of a glutton still at this stage to eat only Power Foods, maybe the steroids or Aunt Flo (gross, sorry) or finally feeling better after two weeks of bronchitis are all conspiring to turn me into a carbo-loading eating machine.

 

Whatever the reason, I'm willing to cheat and go over my weekly Points by up to seven if it means I can avoid eating my dog or turning on a small village, zombie-style. I suppose I could have counted all of the cleaning I did this weekend as Activity Points, but I still feel guilty counting Activity Points unless I'm, like, in workout clothes at the gym. Which hasn't happened yet and probably won't until I lose enough weight to be able to workout in public without humiliating myself. So there you have it.

 

Anyway, just one more day and I'll be gifted 43 magical daily Points on top of 49 weekly Points and I'll be so happy I won't know what to eat first!

Uh Oh...Steroids

A little bummed today. I finally went to the doctor today after a week of being sick. On a positive note, their scale registered 274.5 pounds, so either the doctor's scale is really generous and doesn't match the Weight Watchers scale, or I've managed to lose weight despite all of the mucus in my body right now. (That was gross. I'm sorry. But seriously, SO MUCH mucus. Ew.)

The bummer is that I was prescribed prednisone to treat a nasty case of bronchitis which, of course, started last Tuesday as a terrible sinus infection. I got a steroid shot today, and then picked up the 12 day prescription at the pharmacy. I'll be taking 40mg for the next three days, 30mg the next three days, and so on. I've been on prednisone quite a few times (there's my weird luck...or bad luck...) and one thing I know is that it always causes weight gain for me. That could be due to all of the usual subsequent variables--reduced activity from being sick and immobile, increased appetite from the medicine, water retention as a result of the leached potassium--but are these all things that I can control by sticking with the Weight Watchers plan? We'll see. I'm nervous. And, as I said, a little bummed. I feel better bronchitis-wise already, but I still have 11 days of steroids and a Weight Watchers meeting coming up on Wednesday.

Speaking of which, I'm still a little nervous about this new 360 plan they're supposedly telling us about on Wednesday. I knew Weight Watchers was making a big announcement, but after the meeting two weeks ago, I just thought that new activity tracker thingy was it. Not sure how I'm going to fare with the combination of a revised plan and steroid therapy. This should be an interesting couple of weeks. And then...CHRISTMAS. Yikes.

I think I'll use my last four points for some Wild Turkey now...I just freaked myself out even more. Oy.